Don't worry and just wait..

you can keep whatever you promised them, you can keep that promises you have done for them all these while, i have enough of pain in this life. I have learned my lesson babe, I have learned the hard way. Thank you. Every other day I wish I know how to be strong but I can never be one. I can't let go what I have made as my precious one. You can kill me to make me let go everything that I have carved in my heart. To you and them I may not be important but to me you and them are everything above my family. You all were the place I called a shelter and comfort zone you all were my everything before my family. I won't mind to replace my life for all of you and that will never change. Sorry that I will never change myself and I will keep it this way. One way to make me forget them is by killing me. That is when I will forget and forgot by them.
I love you all too deeply to forget you all easily but if I have to erase you all it is impossible.
Let me be, let me die slowly I will die eventually don't worry I am waiting for my time too..
Just wait patiently so you guys can celebrate once I am gone.